Freedom and Fresh Starts

The Key Mara Chose · Chapter 2 of 6

Chapter 2

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Silas Wickham had been waiting eleven months to escape.

That was what frightened Elias most.

Some men ran the first chance they got.

Silas was not some men.

He waited.

He watched.

He learned when guards changed positions, which deputy drank too much, which window latch had weakened, and which horse was fastest in the stable behind the courthouse.

Then one Tuesday morning, he disappeared.

Sheriff Caleb Morris stood near Elias's table and described the escape.

“Deputy found Franklin unconscious behind the jail. Wickham took his revolver, his coat, and eighteen dollars from his pocket.”

“Horse?”

“Gray gelding.”

“Alone?”

“At first.”

Elias looked at him.

“At first?”

Caleb removed his hat.

“We found tracks twelve miles north. Three horses.”

Mara stood near the stove.

Elias noticed immediately that she had gone very still.

“Who joined him?” Elias asked.

“We don't know.”

“You know something.”

Caleb sighed.

“People are afraid to talk.”

Elias gave a humorless smile.

“They always are when talking matters.”

Caleb lowered his voice.

“Wickham asked about you before he left.”

Mara's gaze moved to Elias.

“What did he ask?”

Caleb hesitated.

Elias understood.

“Say it.”

“He asked whether Mercer still lived alone.”

Silence followed.

Mara looked toward the window.

The implication settled heavily over the room.

Elias did not react outwardly.

But inside, every instinct sharpened.

“When?”

“Two weeks ago. One of the prisoners heard him ask a guard.”

“And what did the guard say?”

Caleb's jaw tightened.

“That you've got a woman working here.”

Elias turned.

The sheriff added quickly, “Franklin claims he didn't tell him anything else.”

“Franklin also got knocked unconscious.”

“I know.”

Elias walked to a gun cabinet.

Mara watched him remove cartridges.

Caleb said, “I'm putting two deputies near your place tonight.”

“No.”

“Elias—”

“Wickham sees deputies, he waits.”

“That's the point.”

“No. He finds another way.”

Mara spoke.

“Then what do you suggest?”

Both men looked at her.

Elias answered.

“You stay in town.”

“No.”

“Mara.”

“No.”

Caleb cleared his throat.

“I can arrange a room at the hotel.”

Mara turned toward him.

“Where everyone will watch me enter?”

Caleb looked uncomfortable.

“It would be protected.”

“Protected,” she repeated.

Elias knew that tone.

“Mara.”

She faced him.

“You think sending me away makes me safer?”

“Yes.”

“What happens when Wickham follows?”

“I'll find him first.”

“What happens if you don't?”

Elias did not answer.

Mara stepped closer.

“You said men insult me under your roof, it becomes your fight.”

“This is different.”

“Why?”

“Because bullets are different from words.”

“So I should run.”

“Yes.”

Mara's expression hardened.

“I have spent enough of my life being told where I may stand because somebody else decided I was the danger.”

“I'm not saying you're the danger.”

“You're saying I should disappear because someone dangerous might come looking for you.”

“He might come looking for you.”

“Then teach me what to do.”

The room went quiet.

Caleb looked between them.

Elias said, “This isn't your fight.”

Mara's eyes flashed.

“If a man is asking whether you live alone because he plans to use me against you, then he made it my fight.”

Elias knew she was right.

That did not make him like it.

He stepped outside.

Mara followed.

Caleb remained behind, perhaps wise enough to give them space.

Elias stopped near the porch.

“You don't understand Wickham.”

“No. But I understand men who believe fear gives them power.”

“This isn't about pride.”

“I know.”

“Mara, he killed two ranch hands during a robbery because one of them laughed at him.”

She stared at Elias.

“He shot a deputy who was already bleeding on the ground.”

Mara's face softened slightly.

Elias continued.

“I brought in his brother last year. Silas promised he'd make me regret it.”

“And now he knows about me.”

“Yes.”

“And that frightens you.”

Elias looked away.

It was easier to face a rifle barrel than answer that.

Mara saw the truth anyway.

She stepped closer.

“Elias.”

He finally looked at her.

“I am already afraid,” he admitted.

There.

The thing Elias Mercer almost never said.

Mara's expression changed.

“Not for myself.”

He swallowed.

“For you.”

A long silence stretched between them.

Then Mara said quietly, “Good.”

Elias frowned.

“Good?”

“Fear means you understand what can be lost.”

He looked at her.

“That doesn't make me feel better.”

“It was not meant to.”

Before sunset, Elias showed Mara how to handle his spare shotgun.

She already knew the basics.

That surprised him.

“My husband taught me,” she explained.

“You never mentioned that.”

“You never asked.”

Elias handed her two shells.

“How long since you've fired one?”

“Seven years.”

“Then today you're remembering.”

They spent the next hour behind the cabin.

Mara's first shot missed the tin can completely.

Elias said nothing.

Her second struck dirt two feet away.

She glared.

“Don't.”

“I didn't say anything.”

“You were thinking loudly.”

The third shot knocked the can from a stump.

Elias nodded.

“Better.”

“Your praise overwhelms me.”

“I'd hate to spoil you.”

For one rare moment, she laughed.

The sound startled Elias.

Not because it was loud.

Because he realized he had been waiting to hear it.

That night, Caleb stationed deputies farther down the road despite Elias's objections.

Nothing happened.

Nor the next night.

Or the next.

Wickham disappeared into the territory.

That made everyone more nervous.

People in town began telling stories.

One claimed Wickham had crossed into Mexico.

Another swore he had joined a gang of railroad thieves.

Someone else said he had been seen less than twenty miles away buying ammunition.

Elias ignored rumors.

He followed facts.

Tracks.

Witnesses.

Patterns.

Yet every trail ended.

Five days after Wickham's escape, Elias returned from town to find Mara sitting on his porch.

“You shouldn't sit where you're visible.”

“Good afternoon to you too.”

“Mara.”

“There is a letter nailed to my door.”

Elias stopped.

“What?”

She held out a piece of paper.

Elias took it.

Four words had been written across it.

MERCER CANNOT SAVE YOU.

Elias felt cold anger spread through him.

“When?”

“I found it this morning.”

“You touched it?”

“To remove it from my door.”

“Tracks?”

“Two horses.”

“You saw direction?”

“North.”

He looked up sharply.

Mara continued.

“I followed them about half a mile before they disappeared near rock.”

“You followed them?”

“Yes.”

“Alone?”

“Yes.”

“Mara—”

“Do not begin shouting.”

“I don't shout.”

“You are about to.”

Elias crushed the paper slightly in his fist.

“You could've been killed.”

“And I could have remained inside frightened of a piece of paper.”

“You don't understand—”

“There it is again.”

“What?”

“You telling me what I don't understand.”

Elias paced away.

He knew his fear was turning into anger.

Not at her.

At Wickham.

At himself.

At the fact that he had allowed someone close enough to become vulnerable.

Mara watched him.

“You want me to leave.”

“Yes.”

“To protect me.”

“Yes.”

“Or because if I am gone, you will not have to feel afraid?”

Elias stopped.

That question cut directly through him.

Mara rose from the porch.

“You have spent years alone because loneliness is predictable.”

He stared at her.

She continued.

“Nobody can threaten what you refuse to love.”

“Mara.”

“Am I wrong?”

Elias said nothing.

Her eyes filled with something stronger than anger.

Disappointment.

“I will not become another thing you abandon before somebody can take it from you.”

She walked past him.

Elias caught her wrist gently.

Mara looked down at his hand.

He immediately released her.

“Stay.”

She looked at him.

Elias forced the word out again.

“Stay.”

“Why?”

He was not ready to answer the larger question.

So he answered the immediate one.

“Because I need to know you're safe.”

Mara shook her head.

“Not enough.”

“What do you want me to say?”

“The truth.”

He stared at her.

She waited.

Elias looked toward the hills.

“I don't know how to do this.”

“Do what?”

“This.”

He gestured between them.

“Care about someone without expecting it to end badly.”

Mara's anger softened.

Neither spoke for several seconds.

Then she said, “Nobody knows how.”

“You seem to.”

“No.”

Her voice became quieter.

“I only know running first does not hurt less.”

Elias looked at her.

He wondered about her husband.

About the fever that took him.

About the years she had spent inside her own silent house.

Perhaps she was not braver because she had suffered less.

Perhaps she was braver because she had survived losing someone and still allowed herself to care again.

That evening, Mara stayed.

Not as an employee.

Not exactly as a guest.

Something between them had shifted too far to pretend otherwise.

Elias cooked.

Badly.

Mara ate two bites before setting down her fork.

“What?”

“You should continue hiring me.”

“It's edible.”

“That depends on your definition.”

“It won't kill you.”

“Your confidence is inspiring.”

Elias laughed.

Actually laughed.

Later, they sat on the porch.

Mara said, “My husband was named Tomas.”

Elias remained silent, letting her continue if she wished.

“He was not Apache. His mother was Mexican. His father was Irish.”

Elias glanced over.

“That must have confused half the territory.”

“It confused Tomas too.”

A faint smile.

“He could speak four languages and curse in six.”

Elias smiled.

“You loved him.”

“Yes.”

No hesitation.

Elias appreciated that.

“He was sick twelve days.”

Her voice tightened slightly.

“I thought if I worked hard enough, prayed hard enough, stayed awake long enough, I could keep him here.”

Elias stared into the darkness.

“You couldn't.”

“No.”

Mara looked at her hands.

“For years I believed loving him had been a mistake because losing him hurt so badly.”

Elias said nothing.

“Then I understood the pain was not proof love had been foolish.”

She turned toward him.

“It was proof it mattered.”

Elias felt something inside him shift.

He reached across the small space between their chairs.

Mara looked down as his hand covered hers.

Neither spoke.

The following afternoon, Elias rode with Caleb to search several abandoned mining cabins.

They found signs of recent occupation at the third.

Coffee grounds.

Horse manure.

Boot prints.

Three men.

Caleb crouched.

“These are fresh.”

Elias touched cold ash in the fire pit.

“Less than a day.”

One set of tracks led east.

Toward Elias's land.

He stood quickly.

Caleb understood.

“Mara.”

They rode hard.

By the time Elias saw his cabin in the distance, sunlight was disappearing behind the hills.

Mara was inside.

The door was closed.

Everything looked normal.

Too normal.

Elias dismounted before his horse had fully stopped.

“Mara!”

The door opened.

She appeared.

“What happened?”

Elias grabbed her shoulders.

“You're all right.”

Her eyes widened.

“Yes.”

He looked around.

“Anyone come here?”

“No.”

Caleb arrived behind him.

Elias found the tracks near the creek.

One rider.

Watching.

He had remained there long enough to smoke a cigarette.

Mara saw Elias's face.

“They were here.”

“One of them.”

“Watching?”

“Yes.”

She did not show fear.

But that night, Mara placed the shotgun beside the bed.

Elias sat by the window.

“You should sleep,” she told him.

“So should you.”

“I am.”

“You're talking.”

“So are you.”

Hours passed.

Around midnight, a coyote cried somewhere beyond the ridge.

Then silence.

At nearly two in the morning, Elias saw movement.

A rider.

Then another.

Then a third.

Three silhouettes emerged beyond the fence.

Elias stood.

“Mara.”

She was already awake.

“I see them.”

He lifted his rifle.

A voice crossed the darkness.

“Mercer!”

Silas Wickham.

Elias felt his jaw tighten.

Mara picked up the shotgun.

The man outside laughed.

“You really think you can protect that widow?”

Elias's blood went cold.

Because suddenly he understood.

They had not come only to kill him.

They had come for her.

Elias moved beside the wall.

“Mara, stay low.”

“Where are they?”

“Three. Maybe more.”

A second voice shouted something from near the barn.

Wickham called again.

“Come outside, Mercer, and maybe we leave the woman breathing!”

Mara looked at Elias.

He saw no panic.

Only calculation.

Then the first bullet exploded through the cabin door.

Wood splintered across the room.

Elias raised his rifle.

Mara did something he never expected.

She blew out the lamp.

Darkness swallowed the cabin.

And suddenly Wickham's men were the ones who could no longer see.

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