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The Blue Handkerchief by the Stove · Chapter 1 of 7

Chapter 1

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“Do I dig my own grave while the ground is still soft? Or does the twenty dollars mean you’ll shoot me first?”

Harlon had faced grizzly bears, armed thieves, and winters so bitter that trees split open in the night.

But nothing had prepared him for the question coming from the young woman sitting beside his stove.

Cora was barely twenty. Her blonde hair hung damp around her thin face, and the oversized flannel shirt he had given her swallowed her narrow shoulders. Fresh rope burns circled her wrists. Beneath the shirt were bruises he had seen only briefly before turning away.

She sat on the edge of his bed, watching him with the same exhausted hazel eyes she had worn on the auction wagon in Orofino.

There was no anger in her question.

No accusation.

Only the terrible patience of someone who expected an answer.

Harlon slowly lowered his pipe.

“Neither,” he said.

Cora blinked.

“Neither what?”

“You won't dig a grave. And I won't shoot you.”

Her gaze drifted toward the rifle hanging above the fireplace.

“What happens when the food runs out?”

“Then I hunt.”

“And if you can't?”

“Then we eat less.”

“And if there's nothing left?”

Harlon looked at her for a long moment.

“Then we figure something out.”

She seemed dissatisfied.

“That's not a rule.”

“No,” he admitted. “It isn't.”

The wind struck the cabin hard enough to rattle the shutters. Cora flinched, and Harlon noticed her eyes immediately searching for the nearest exit.

He knew that look.

He had seen it in wounded deer and starving wolves.

But he had never expected to see it on a woman's face while she sat beside a warm stove.

“Listen carefully,” he said. “Nobody is going to hurt you in this cabin.”

She lowered her gaze.

“Men say things.”

“Some do.”

“Then they change their minds.”

Harlon rubbed his beard.

“I can't speak for other men.”

Cora waited.

“But I can speak for myself.”

He pointed toward the bed.

“You sleep there. I sleep here. Tomorrow you'll eat breakfast, and if you want to leave when the weather clears, I'll take you wherever you want to go.”

Her fingers tightened around the hem of the shirt.

“You paid twenty dollars.”

“I remember.”

“That's a lot of money.”

“Not as much as you think.”

Her expression changed for the first time.

Not quite surprise.

Something closer to confusion.

“Then why did you pay it?”

Harlon stared into the fire.

He could have told her that the rat-faced auctioneer had made his blood boil.

He could have said that watching a man kick a defenseless woman had awakened something dangerous inside him.

But neither answer was the whole truth.

He had seen her standing on that wagon in the freezing rain, silent while the crowd laughed.

And for one terrible instant, he had remembered another woman.

A woman who had once waited for him to come home.

A woman he had failed.

“Because somebody should have stopped it,” he finally answered.

Cora looked at him.

“Why you?”

Harlon had no answer.

Outside, the storm deepened.

Inside, the young woman he had bought for twenty dollars began crying without making a sound.

And Harlon discovered that silence could be more painful than screaming.

Earlier that morning, he had wanted nothing more than to escape Orofino.

The mining settlement lay beneath a sky the color of dirty wool. Its streets were little more than trenches filled with mud, manure, and melting snow. Canvas tents crowded between unfinished wooden buildings. Smoke poured from crooked chimneys, carrying the smells of cheap whiskey, damp clothing, and coal.

Harlon had traveled down from the mountains for supplies.

Fifty pounds of flour.

Salt pork.

Coffee.

A tin of percussion caps.

Nothing more.

He came twice a year, bought what he needed, and returned to the wilderness where the only voices belonged to the wind and the ravens.

People complicated everything.

People lied.

People took what did not belong to them.

And people had a way of making promises they could never keep.

He was tightening the straps on his pack horse when the shouting began.

At first, he ignored it.

Drunken miners were always fighting over cards, whiskey, or women.

Then he heard laughter.

Not the careless laughter of men enjoying themselves.

Something uglier.

Something hungry.

Across the muddy road, a crowd had gathered around a buckboard wagon.

A thin man with a ratlike face stood in the wagon bed, waving a dirty paper above his head.

Beside him stood a blonde girl in a torn dress made from flour sacks.

A faded blue mill logo stretched across her ribs.

Her wrists were bound together with coarse hemp rope.

“Twenty-five dollars!” the man shouted. “She cooks, cleans, mends clothes, and doesn't complain!”

A miner near the front spat into the mud.

“Does she bite?”

The crowd laughed.

“Not anymore!” the auctioneer answered.

He jerked the rope.

The girl stumbled to her knees.

She did not cry out.

Harlon stopped moving.

Something about her stillness disturbed him more than the cruelty itself.

He had seen animals fight desperately when trapped.

He had seen wolves tear at steel chains until their mouths filled with blood.

But this girl did nothing.

She simply waited.

A man threw mud at her shoulder.

She did not even turn her head.

“Fifteen!” someone shouted.

“Twenty-five!” the auctioneer insisted.

Another miner laughed.

“I'll give you ten if you throw in a shovel!”

Harlon felt his jaw tighten.

He told himself to walk away.

He had survived nearly fifteen years in the mountains by minding his own business.

He had no need for another person.

Certainly not a wife.

He barely tolerated his horse.

But then the auctioneer kicked the girl in the thigh.

She rose slowly, swaying.

And Harlon began walking.

The crowd parted when they saw him.

He was a massive man with broad shoulders, weathered skin, and long dark hair streaked with gray. A heavy fur vest hung over his bare arms. His trousers were stained with mud, and a bone-handled knife rested against his hip.

His eyes were pale and cold.

“Twenty,” he said.

The auctioneer sneered.

“Price is twenty-five, mountain man.”

Harlon reached into his coat.

He removed a twenty-dollar gold piece and tossed it into the mud.

The coin landed beside the auctioneer's boots.

“Twenty,” Harlon repeated. “And if you keep talking, I'll take it back.”

The man looked at the gold.

Then at Harlon's knife.

He climbed down quickly.

“She's yours.”

Harlon stepped onto the wagon.

The girl shrank when he drew his blade.

He saw her close her eyes.

Saw her shoulders tighten.

She was expecting him to cut her.

Instead, he sliced through the rope.

The severed fibers dropped to the boards.

“Get your things.”

She stared at her wrists.

“I don't have things.”

Her voice sounded scraped raw.

“Then walk.”

He climbed down.

He did not turn around.

But after several steps, he heard the faint sound of her bare feet moving through the mud.

By the time they reached his horse, the girl was trembling violently.

Harlon examined her feet.

They were swollen, filthy, and marked with small cuts.

He muttered something unpleasant beneath his breath.

Then he lifted her behind the saddle.

She weighed almost nothing.

“Hold on.”

She gripped the leather straps instead of touching him.

The trail climbed sharply into the mountains.

Rain became sleet.

Sleet became snow.

By midday, the world had turned white.

Harlon stopped beneath a rocky overhang and handed her a hard biscuit.

She accepted it.

But instead of eating, she slipped it into her pocket.

“Eat.”

She shook her head.

“Why?”

“I'm saving it.”

“For what?”

Her answer came without hesitation.

“For when you stop feeding me.”

Harlon stared at her.

He had lived alone long enough to believe that nothing people said could surprise him anymore.

He had been wrong.

“What's your name?”

“Cora.”

“Just Cora?”

She nodded.

He handed her another biscuit.

“Eat one. Save the other.”

She looked at him suspiciously.

Then she took a tiny bite.

They reached the cabin after dark.

It stood beneath towering pines, half buried in snow, with a small woodshed attached to the northern wall.

Harlon lit the stove.

He fetched dry clothing.

When he told Cora to remove her soaked dress, she obeyed immediately.

Too immediately.

By the time he turned, she had lowered the dress to her waist.

He saw the bruises.

Old yellow marks.

Fresh purple ones.

A jagged scar beneath her collarbone.

Then he saw her expression.

She was not embarrassed.

She was waiting.

Waiting for him to claim what he had supposedly purchased.

Harlon turned away so quickly that his chair scraped across the floor.

He threw her a flannel shirt.

“Put that on.”

She hesitated.

“Did I do something wrong?”

“No.”

“Then why are you angry?”

He swallowed.

“I'm not angry at you.”

He gave her his bed.

He took the floor.

He fed her beans until she could eat no more.

And when she finally asked whether he intended to shoot her before winter ended, something inside him cracked.

For a long time after answering her, Harlon remained beside the stove.

Cora had stopped crying.

She watched the flames with hollow eyes.

“My pa sold my little sister for ten dollars,” she whispered.

Harlon turned.

“Where?”

“Missouri.”

“When?”

“Three years ago.”

He waited.

Cora's hands twisted together.

“Her name was Elsie.”

The name seemed to hurt her.

“She was nine.”

Harlon felt his stomach tighten.

Cora continued staring into the fire.

“My pa said she was small enough to be useful and young enough to learn obedience.”

Harlon closed his eyes briefly.

“Who bought her?”

“A man traveling west. I never knew his real name.”

“Did your father tell you where she went?”

“No.”

Her voice broke.

“I promised her I'd come.”

Harlon said nothing.

“I told her I'd find her before Christmas.”

A tear slid down her cheek.

“That was three Christmases ago.”

The stove crackled.

Then Cora whispered something he would remember for the rest of his life.

“I don't care what happens to me, mister. But I need to know whether she's still alive.”

Harlon looked toward the storm-dark window.

For fifteen years, he had avoided other people's troubles.

He had built his life around solitude.

And now a young woman with bruised wrists had brought a promise into his cabin that he did not know how to keep.

He rose and placed another log in the stove.

“Get some sleep, Cora.”

She lowered her head.

“Are you going to send me away?”

“No.”

“Tomorrow?”

“No.”

She looked at him.

“Then what happens tomorrow?”

Harlon watched the flames catch.

“Tomorrow,” he said, “we start figuring out where your sister went.”

Cora stared at him as if he had spoken in a language she had never heard.

And for the first time since he had seen her on the auction wagon, something flickered in her eyes.

Not trust.

Not yet.

But hope.

A small, dangerous thing.

And somewhere beyond the snow-covered mountains, a girl named Elsie might still be waiting for her sister to keep a promise.

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