Freedom and Fresh Starts

Lena Chose the Hand Beside Her · Chapter 3 of 6

Chapter 3

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Lena stood at the top of the stairs while her father shouted from the yard.

“Bring her out, Creed!”

Rose stirred against Lena's chest.

The baby was only three days old.

Tiny.

Warm.

Completely unaware that five armed men had come to decide her mother's future.

Silas stood in the doorway below, rifle resting against his shoulder.

Nathaniel Hartwell sat on horseback twenty yards away.

Four men flanked him.

Lena recognized two.

Turner.

Caleb Boone, who owned the livery stable.

The others were strangers.

Nathaniel raised his voice.

“You paid for her. I'll return your money.”

Silas did not move.

“She isn't property.”

“You agreed to the auction.”

“I ended the auction.”

Nathaniel laughed.

“You bought her.”

“I bought your permission to stop humiliating her in public.”

One rider shifted uneasily.

Nathaniel pointed toward the cabin.

“She's my daughter.”

Silas answered, “Then you should've acted like her father.”

Lena felt those words all the way upstairs.

Nathaniel's face darkened.

“You have no right to speak to me about family.”

Silas's gaze moved briefly toward the window where Lena stood hidden in shadow.

“No. But she does.”

Lena looked down at Rose.

Her daughter yawned.

Such a small thing.

Such an enormous reason to stop being afraid.

She carried Rose back to the bedroom and placed her gently into the wooden cradle Silas had built during her pregnancy.

Then Lena opened the chest beneath the bed.

Inside lay the rifle.

Silas had told her never to pick up a weapon unless she had decided what she was willing to do with it.

Lena lifted it.

Her hands shook.

But not as badly as before.

She descended.

Silas heard the floorboard creak.

He turned.

“What are you doing?”

“Ending this.”

“Go back upstairs.”

“No.”

“Lena—”

She stopped beside him.

“You taught me how to protect myself.”

“Yes.”

“So let me.”

Nathaniel saw her.

His expression changed immediately.

Not concern.

Possession.

“There you are.”

Lena stepped onto the porch.

Rainwater still dripped from the roof after the previous night's storm.

The mountain air was cold.

Nathaniel looked at the rifle.

“Put that down.”

Lena almost obeyed.

The command had lived inside her for years.

Then Rose cried upstairs.

Lena tightened her grip.

“No.”

Nathaniel blinked.

It was the first time Lena could remember refusing him without lowering her voice afterward.

“Come home.”

“This is home.”

Nathaniel glanced at Silas.

“He's poisoned you.”

“No.”

Lena looked directly at her father.

“You did.”

The riders shifted.

Nathaniel's jaw tightened.

“You think that savage cares about you?”

Silas did not react.

Lena did.

“He cut my ropes.”

Nathaniel laughed harshly.

“He paid for you.”

“He gave me a room with a lock.”

Silence.

“He gave me food without demanding obedience. He brought cloth for my baby. He taught me how to protect myself. He never once asked me to earn the right to stay.”

Lena's voice trembled.

She allowed it.

Courage did not require the absence of fear.

“Do you know the difference between him and you?”

Nathaniel's eyes narrowed.

“You are confused.”

“No. For the first time in my life, I'm not.”

Turner cleared his throat.

Nathaniel ignored him.

“You'll regret humiliating me.”

Lena almost smiled.

There it was again.

Humiliation.

His true god.

His deepest fear.

“I spent my whole life afraid of embarrassing you.”

She took one step forward.

“I'm done.”

Nathaniel dismounted.

Silas immediately moved between them.

Lena touched Silas's arm.

“Don't.”

Silas looked at her.

She shook her head.

Nathaniel approached.

“You will come with me.”

“No.”

“You are my daughter.”

“I was.”

The words hurt.

But they were true.

Nathaniel's face twisted.

He reached toward Lena.

She raised the rifle.

Every man froze.

Nathaniel stared at the barrel.

“You wouldn't.”

Lena's heart pounded so violently she could hear it.

“No,” she said quietly. “I don't want to.”

Then she steadied the rifle.

“But you will not enter this house.”

Nathaniel looked at Silas.

“You've turned my daughter against me.”

Silas's answer came calmly.

“No. You finally pushed her far enough that she stopped turning against herself.”

Lena felt tears burn her eyes.

Nathaniel slowly stepped backward.

For one hopeful second, Lena thought it was over.

Then one of the hired men reached for his pistol.

Silas moved faster.

His rifle snapped toward the man.

“Don't.”

The hired man froze.

Turner cursed under his breath.

Nathaniel looked around.

He had expected Silas to threaten them.

He had not expected Lena to stand beside him.

That changed everything.

“Fine,” Nathaniel said.

He mounted.

“But this isn't finished.”

Lena lowered the rifle slightly.

“For me it is.”

Nathaniel turned his horse.

The riders followed.

Before disappearing into the trees, Turner looked back.

His expression promised something darker.

Silas waited until the hoofbeats faded.

Then he shut the door.

Lena's knees gave out.

He caught her.

She began shaking.

“I thought I could do it.”

“You did.”

“I was terrified.”

“That's not the same thing as failing.”

Rose cried upstairs.

Lena immediately stood.

Silas followed her.

They found the baby red-faced and furious.

Lena lifted her.

Silas watched.

“I don't think she liked the argument.”

Lena laughed through tears.

“No.”

“Strong lungs.”

“Like her mother?”

Silas looked at her.

“Exactly like her mother.”

The confrontation changed something inside Lena.

Nathaniel's voice still lived in her memory.

But it no longer controlled her.

The next morning, she walked outside alone.

Silas was chopping wood.

“I want a garden.”

He stopped.

“A garden?”

“Yes.”

“What kind?”

“Vegetables.”

Silas looked around.

“Ground's rocky.”

“So?”

He smiled faintly.

“So we'll clear it.”

They began that afternoon.

Silas broke the soil.

Lena planted beans, squash and herbs.

It was too late in the season for much harvest.

She planted anyway.

Because planting meant believing tomorrow would exist.

Rose grew stronger.

Within two weeks, the baby began filling out.

Silas built a larger cradle.

Then a shelf.

Then a tiny wooden horse.

“You know she can't use that for years,” Lena said.

“I know.”

“Then why make it now?”

Silas shrugged.

Lena smiled.

They became a strange household.

Not husband and wife.

Not exactly friends.

Something in between.

Silas hunted.

Lena cooked.

He repaired the cabin.

She transformed it.

Wildflowers appeared in jars.

Curtains replaced bare windows.

Rose's yellow cloth became blankets.

Silas sometimes held the baby when Lena slept.

The first time Lena woke and found him asleep in the chair with Rose against his chest, she stood in the doorway for several minutes.

The sight frightened her.

Because she wanted it.

Not temporary safety.

Not shelter.

This.

A family.

Silas woke.

Their eyes met.

Something passed between them.

Neither spoke.

Then Rose sneezed.

Silas looked down in alarm.

Lena laughed.

“She does that.”

“Sounds dangerous.”

“She weighs eight pounds.”

“Still.”

Lena took the baby.

Their hands brushed.

Both went still.

Silas stepped away first.

That hurt more than Lena expected.

Later that evening, she found him outside.

“Did I do something?”

“No.”

“You've barely looked at me.”

Silas leaned against the fence.

“I've been thinking.”

“Dangerous habit.”

He smiled briefly.

Then grew serious.

“You deserve to know something.”

Lena waited.

“People in Gravel Hollow say I killed men.”

“I know.”

“They're right.”

She swallowed.

Silas looked toward the mountains.

“War ended. Mine didn't.”

He explained that after returning home, he had worked as a scout protecting settlements from outlaw bands.

Some fights ended badly.

Some men died.

“One of those men had a brother,” Silas continued. “Turner Boone.”

Lena stared.

“The butcher?”

Silas nodded.

“His older brother rode with a gang that attacked a wagon train. I stopped them.”

“Turner knows?”

“Yes.”

“Then his interest in me—”

“Probably wasn't only about you.”

The realization chilled her.

“He wanted revenge.”

“Maybe.”

“Why didn't you tell me?”

“Because you had enough fear.”

Lena's expression hardened.

Silas noticed.

“You're right.”

She folded her arms.

“That sounds suspiciously like deciding what I'm allowed to know.”

He nodded.

“It was.”

“You promised—”

“I know.”

Silas faced her fully.

“I was wrong.”

Lena stopped.

Nathaniel had never said those words.

Not once.

Silas continued.

“I should've told you. I'm telling you now.”

Her anger softened.

“Do you think Turner will come back?”

“Yes.”

“When?”

“I don't know.”

That evening, they moved Rose's cradle away from the window.

Silas checked the rifle.

Lena loaded hers.

For three days, nothing happened.

Then Samuel Reeves arrived.

He rode hard.

His horse was lathered with sweat.

Silas met him in the yard.

Samuel nearly fell from the saddle.

“Turner's gathering men.”

Silas went still.

“How many?”

“Maybe eight.”

“Where?”

“Old mining road.”

Samuel looked at Lena.

“Your father is with him.”

Lena's stomach dropped.

“Why?”

Samuel shook his head.

“I don't think Nathaniel understands what Turner wants.”

“What does Turner want?”

Samuel looked at Silas.

“To burn you out.”

Rose began crying inside the cabin.

Lena turned toward the sound.

Behind her, Silas asked one question.

“When?”

Samuel looked toward the darkening mountains.

“Tonight.”

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