Freedom and Fresh Starts

When the Bowl Could Fall · Chapter 6 of 6

Chapter 6

By My Life Story Editorial · Published · Updated

Spring came late to the mountains.

Snow lingered beneath the pines even as wildflowers began opening in the lower valleys.

Abigail's land at Clear Creek proved more valuable than anyone expected.

Not because of gold.

Not because of timber.

Because the soil near the creek was unusually fertile.

Eighty acres of meadow, cottonwoods, and open ground stretched beneath a low ridge.

The first time Abigail stood there, she cried.

Cole pretended not to notice.

She pointed toward the creek.

"A garden."

Cole nodded.

"There?"

"Big one."

"How big?"

"Bigger than your pathetic vegetable patch."

Cole sighed.

"We've discussed this."

"We have."

"My carrots were respectable."

"They were ashamed of themselves."

He smiled.

"What else?"

Abigail turned slowly.

"Maybe a house someday."

Cole's smile faded slightly.

A house.

Her house.

Not his cabin.

He had known this moment might come.

Abigail now had land.

Legal ownership.

Freedom.

She no longer needed him.

That was exactly what he had wanted for her.

So why did the thought feel like someone had placed a stone in his chest?

Abigail noticed his silence.

"What?"

"Nothing."

"You have a face."

"I always have a face."

"That particular face."

Cole looked toward the mountains.

"You're free."

Abigail frowned.

"I've been free."

"Different now."

He nodded toward the property.

"You've got something that's yours."

"Yes."

"You could build here."

"I could."

"Marry someone in town."

Abigail stared.

Cole continued despite every instinct telling him to shut up.

"Start over."

"Are you trying to get rid of me?"

His head snapped toward her.

"No."

"Sounds like it."

"I'm saying you don't owe me anything."

She folded her arms.

"We've established that."

"Abigail."

"What?"

"I don't want you staying because you think you have to."

Her anger softened.

Cole looked down.

"I don't want to become another person deciding your life."

Abigail understood.

She walked closer.

"You aren't."

"You sure?"

"Yes."

"Because if you want this land—"

"I do."

"And if you want your own house—"

"I might."

Cole nodded too quickly.

"Then that's settled."

Abigail stepped closer again.

"You're a very stupid man sometimes."

Cole stared.

"I'm trying to respect you."

"I know."

"Then why am I stupid?"

"Because you think my freedom means leaving you."

Silence.

Birdsong filled the meadow.

Cole swallowed.

"Doesn't it?"

"No."

Abigail's eyes shone.

"It means I get to choose."

He looked at her.

"And?"

She smiled.

"I'm choosing."

"Choosing what?"

"You."

Cole did not move.

Abigail laughed nervously.

"You could say something."

"I had something prepared for almost every possibility except that one."

"You prepared?"

"In my head."

"That's terrible."

"I spend a lot of time alone."

"Not anymore."

Cole touched her cheek.

Slowly.

Giving her time.

Abigail leaned into his hand.

"Can I kiss you?"

He asked it so quietly she almost cried.

Even now.

Even after everything.

He asked.

"Yes."

Their first kiss was gentle.

No urgency.

No possession.

Just warmth beneath an open Colorado sky.

When they separated, Abigail rested her forehead against his chest.

Cole whispered, "You sure?"

She laughed.

"If you ask again, I may hit you."

His eyebrows rose.

"Violence?"

"I learned from a mountain brute."

"Who called me that?"

"My mother."

"Fair."

They decided not to abandon either property.

Instead, they spent spring repairing a small cabin already standing at Clear Creek.

It became Abigail's project.

Cole helped when invited.

That distinction mattered.

She chose window curtains.

She planted herbs.

She ordered a proper stove.

She registered the land officially under her own name.

ABIGAIL MERCER.

She stared at the document for several minutes.

Cole stood nearby.

"Want to change it?"

"No."

"Didn't say to what."

"I know."

She smiled.

"Not yet."

Word spread through Red Hollow.

Some people were kind.

Some were curious.

Some whispered.

Abigail discovered she cared less than expected.

Mrs. Peterson gave her strawberry plants.

Sheriff Danner brought apple saplings.

Even Mr. Pritchard apologized for allowing Martha to treat her as unpaid labor.

"I should've known," he admitted.

"You did know."

Pritchard lowered his head.

Abigail was surprised by her own calm.

"You just decided it wasn't your concern."

"You're right."

She nodded.

"I forgive you."

His eyes lifted.

"But that doesn't mean what happened was acceptable."

"No, ma'am."

Abigail liked hearing that.

By summer she had transformed ten acres into productive land.

Vegetables grew in neat rows.

Berry bushes lined one fence.

Cole helped build a greenhouse.

Abigail started selling preserves, bread, herbs, and eggs in town.

For the first time, money entered her own hands.

The first dollar she earned remained folded inside Samuel's letter.

A reminder.

She was capable.

She had always been capable.

Martha had simply benefited from convincing her otherwise.

One July afternoon, a letter arrived from the county jail.

Abigail recognized the handwriting.

She sat on the porch for nearly an hour before opening it.

Abigail,

I don't know how to write this.

I have spent most of my life believing every bad thing that happened to me was someone else's fault.

Your father.

My father.

You.

Drink.

Bad luck.

I still want to make excuses.

Maybe I always will.

But nobody forced my hand to strike you.

Nobody forced me to lie.

I did those things.

I don't expect forgiveness.

I remember you asking why nothing you did was enough.

The truth is, nothing could have been enough because the problem was never you.

I wish I had understood that before I taught you otherwise.

Martha

Abigail read the letter twice.

Then she walked to the creek.

Cole found her there near sunset.

"Bad news?"

She handed him the letter.

He read it.

"How do you feel?"

Abigail considered.

"Sad."

"Angry?"

"A little."

"Want to burn it?"

"No."

"Frame it?"

"Definitely not."

Cole handed it back.

"What do you want?"

Abigail smiled faintly.

"To have dinner."

He nodded.

"That I can handle."

As they walked home, she slipped her arm through his.

"Did you really think I'd leave?"

Cole cleared his throat.

"Possibly."

"Why?"

"Because Clear Creek is prettier than my place."

"It is."

He looked offended.

She grinned.

"But your place has you."

He softened.

That autumn, Cole did something he had rehearsed for weeks.

He brought Abigail to the spot above the creek where cottonwood leaves had turned gold.

He carried no elaborate speech.

No expensive ring.

Only a simple silver band purchased in Red Hollow.

Abigail saw him reach into his coat.

She gasped.

Cole immediately frowned.

"That ruins the surprise."

"I can pretend."

"Too late."

He held the ring awkwardly.

"Abigail Mercer."

"Yes?"

"I had this whole thing planned."

"Go ahead."

"I forgot it."

She covered a smile.

Cole exhaled.

"I love you."

Her amusement vanished.

His voice became steady.

"I loved you before I knew that's what it was. I loved the first time you laughed at my cooking."

"You don't cook."

"Exactly."

She smiled.

"I love that you're stubborn. I love that you argue with me. I even love your disrespect toward my carrots."

"That's serious."

"Very."

He took her hand.

"But I need you to understand something."

She waited.

"If you say no, nothing changes. You keep your land. Your money. Your cabin. Your choices. You owe me nothing."

Tears filled her eyes.

Cole continued.

"If you say yes, I don't want to own your life. I want to share it."

Abigail looked at the man who had once paid three coins to remove her from a place where she had forgotten what safety felt like.

He had never once asked repayment.

He had given her room until she learned how to stand.

Now he was offering partnership instead of possession.

"Yes."

Cole blinked.

"I haven't asked yet."

"You've talked for five minutes."

"I was getting there."

"Ask."

He smiled.

"Will you marry me?"

"Yes."

He slid the ring onto her finger.

Abigail kissed him before he could say anything else.

They stood beside Clear Creek beneath falling golden leaves.

Far away, a door had once slammed and made Abigail tremble.

A bowl had once fallen and driven her to her knees.

Now wind shook leaves from branches.

A crow called loudly overhead.

Cole's horse snorted.

And Abigail did not flinch.

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