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The Winter She Chose to Stay · Chapter 2 of 6

Chapter 2

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By the time Ethan reached the cabin, Clara was unconscious.

He kicked the door open and carried her inside with both infants pressed beneath his coat.

Warmth from the woodstove met him.

Not enough.

He needed more.

Ethan placed Clara on his bed, then lowered the babies onto folded blankets near the stove—but not too close.

His hands moved with an urgency that surprised him.

He had lived alone for fifteen years.

In that time, injuries were handled with whiskey, clean cloth, stubbornness, and whatever practical knowledge he'd accumulated.

Newborn twins were another matter entirely.

"All right," he muttered. "Think."

He built the fire higher.

Then he filled a pot with water.

The louder baby whimpered.

The quieter one remained still.

Ethan touched her cheek.

Cold.

Too cold.

He picked her up and held her inside his shirt against his chest.

The infant felt impossibly small.

"Come on."

Nothing.

He rubbed her back gently.

"You made it this far."

A tiny breath.

Ethan closed his eyes for one second.

"That's it."

The other infant cried.

Clara stirred at the sound.

"My babies."

Ethan crossed the room.

"They're here."

Her eyes opened.

"Both?"

"Both."

"Alive?"

"Yes."

Clara began crying silently.

Ethan did not know what to do with tears.

He had once known.

Long ago.

But those instincts had rusted.

He settled for stating facts.

"You're all too cold. That's the first problem."

Clara tried pushing herself upright.

"I need to feed them."

"You need to warm up."

"They need me more."

Her determination impressed him.

Ethan helped her sit against the headboard and brought the infants.

Clara gathered them beneath the blankets.

When Lily—the quiet twin—finally made a tiny complaining sound, Clara bent over her and sobbed into the baby's blanket.

"Thank God."

Ethan turned away.

Something inside his chest tightened unexpectedly.

He busied himself with coffee.

"What happened?"

Clara looked toward him.

He didn't turn.

"Who tied you there?"

Silence.

Ethan poured water into the pot.

Finally Clara said, "My husband's brothers."

His hand stopped.

"Whitmore?"

She stared.

"You know them?"

"Name."

"Gerald and Victor."

Ethan's face remained unreadable.

"And your husband?"

"Thomas."

He looked at her then.

Clara saw something change in him.

Not surprise exactly.

Recognition.

"You knew Thomas."

Ethan returned his attention to the stove.

"A long time ago."

"How?"

"Doesn't matter right now."

"It matters to me."

"Right now what matters is keeping you and those girls breathing."

Clara wanted to argue.

She lacked the strength.

Ethan found an old flannel shirt and gave it to her along with dry blankets. Then he turned his back while she changed beneath the covers.

The shirt swallowed her.

She looked down at the sleeves.

For reasons she couldn't explain, the absurd size of it nearly made her laugh.

Instead she cried again.

"I'm sorry."

Ethan glanced over.

"For what?"

"I don't seem able to stop."

"Crying?"

She nodded.

"Seems reasonable."

It was the closest thing to kindness she had heard from a man since Thomas died.

Clara wiped her face.

"My name is Clara."

"I guessed you weren't planning to remain anonymous."

A faint smile touched her lips.

"Ethan Callaway?"

His shoulders stiffened.

"How do you know?"

"I saw the name burned into the shelf."

He looked at the crude lettering on the cabinet.

E. CALLAWAY.

"Right."

The moment passed.

Clara fed the twins.

Ethan watched the storm through the window.

"If those men wanted you dead, they'll realize eventually that you're missing."

"I know."

"You have anywhere safe to go?"

Clara thought of relatives.

Her parents were dead.

Her only sister had moved east years ago. Letters had become less frequent after Thomas's death.

"No."

"You have money?"

"No."

"Property?"

Clara hesitated.

"Thomas's share of the Whitmore ranch was supposed to pass to his child."

"Supposed to?"

"Gerald said the documents were complicated."

Ethan gave a humorless laugh.

"Gerald always did appreciate complicated documents."

Clara studied him.

"You really know him."

"I knew his father better."

Something in Ethan's voice warned her not to push.

But Clara had almost died.

Patience was becoming less attractive.

"Why did you leave?"

He looked at her sharply.

"I didn't say I lived there."

"You said you knew Gerald's father. You knew Thomas. And when I told you their names, you looked like you'd swallowed broken glass."

For a moment Ethan seemed almost offended.

Then he gave a short laugh.

"Thomas used to say people underestimated you."

Clara froze.

"What?"

Ethan realized the mistake immediately.

"You knew him well."

"Years ago."

"How many?"

"Enough."

"Ethan."

He looked toward the babies.

"No."

The answer shut the door.

For now.

Hours passed.

Clara slept in short intervals.

Ethan checked the infants continuously.

By afternoon, Lily's skin had warmed and her breathing strengthened.

The change lifted something heavy from the room.

Ethan boiled broth.

Clara drank it slowly.

Outside, the storm weakened.

That worried Ethan more than it relieved him.

Tracks would soon become easier to follow.

Gerald might search.

He checked his rifle.

Clara noticed.

"You think they'll come."

"I think men willing to leave a woman and newborns in snow don't suddenly grow consciences."

"What should we do?"

Ethan looked at her.

"We?"

Clara's expression changed.

For the first time, Ethan understood what his question sounded like.

He sighed.

"I'm not throwing you outside."

"I didn't think—"

"You did."

Clara lowered her eyes.

Ethan hated himself for noticing.

"Listen."

She looked up.

"You can stay here until you're strong enough to decide what comes next."

"Why?"

The question surprised him.

"Because you almost froze to death."

"You don't know me."

"I know enough."

"What if Gerald comes?"

"He won't take you."

Clara looked at the rifle.

Something cold moved down her spine despite the warm room.

"I don't want anyone killed."

"Neither do I."

"Then what happens if he arrives?"

Ethan's gaze settled on her.

"He leaves."

There was such certainty in those two words that Clara believed him.

By evening, the babies were warm enough that Ethan stopped checking them every five minutes.

He pretended he hadn't been.

Clara noticed anyway.

Emma seemed determined to compensate for nearly freezing by demanding food whenever Ethan attempted to sit.

Lily remained quieter.

When Ethan held Emma awkwardly after Clara asked for help, the baby stared up at him.

"Support her head," Clara instructed.

"I am."

"Not like you're holding a sack of potatoes."

"I've never dropped potatoes."

Clara laughed.

The sound startled both of them.

Clara covered her mouth.

"I'm sorry."

Ethan frowned.

"Stop apologizing for everything."

Her smile disappeared.

She looked down.

Ethan immediately regretted his tone.

"Thomas used to tell me that."

He leaned against the table.

"Tell you what?"

"To stop apologizing."

Silence settled.

Clara traced the edge of Lily's blanket.

"I apologized when meals were late. When rain ruined the wash. When cattle broke fencing. Sometimes I apologized when Thomas bumped into furniture."

Ethan almost smiled.

"He walked into things as a boy too."

Clara looked up quickly.

"There."

"What?"

"You did it again."

Ethan cursed silently.

"You knew him when he was a boy."

"Yes."

"Where?"

"Here."

She blinked.

"On this ridge?"

"Near it."

"Why didn't Thomas ever mention you?"

Ethan's expression closed.

"Ask me another day."

"Will there be another day?"

He met her gaze.

"If I have anything to say about it."

That night Clara slept deeply.

Ethan sat beside the stove with his rifle across his knees.

He did not sleep.

Memories came instead.

Thomas at eleven, racing Ethan across a creek.

Thomas at fourteen, laughing while their father shouted about stolen apples.

Thomas at seventeen, begging Ethan not to leave.

Not their father.

Their father.

Ethan Callaway had not always been Ethan Callaway.

Once he had been Ethan Whitmore.

The eldest son of Jacob Whitmore.

Half brother to Gerald, Victor—and Thomas.

Nobody on the Whitmore ranch knew whether Ethan still lived.

His departure had followed a bitter family war involving his mother, inheritance, and accusations Ethan had been too young to fight.

Jacob had erased Ethan as thoroughly as a man could erase a son.

Ethan allowed it.

Until Thomas secretly found him years later.

For a time, the brothers exchanged letters.

Then Thomas stopped writing.

Seven months ago, Ethan learned why.

Thomas was dead.

Ethan attended the funeral from a distant ridge.

He saw Clara there.

Pregnant.

Alone.

He almost walked down.

He didn't.

He told himself the Whitmores were no longer his concern.

Now Clara and Thomas's daughters slept ten feet away.

Ethan stared into the fire.

Perhaps life had finally grown tired of allowing him to hide.

A horse snorted outside.

Ethan stood instantly.

Not his horse.

He moved toward the window.

Two riders approached through the snow.

Gerald and Victor.

Ethan picked up the rifle.

Behind him Clara woke.

"What is it?"

He didn't answer.

She heard the horses.

All color left her face.

"They found us."

Ethan checked the rifle chamber.

Clara clutched the twins.

"What are you going to do?"

Ethan looked at the sleeping babies.

Then at Clara.

"Something I should have done fifteen years ago."

He opened the door.

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