Freedom and Fresh Starts

The Copy Clara Kept · Chapter 4 of 6

Chapter 4

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The deputy arrived shortly before sunset.

His horse was covered in foam.

Clara knew something was wrong before the man dismounted.

Elias stepped from the barn.

“What happened?”

Deputy Nathan Cole removed his hat.

“Crowe escaped near Blackwater Ridge.”

Elias became still.

“How?”

“Ambush.”

“Men killed?”

“One deputy wounded. Two horses shot.”

“And Crowe?”

“Gone into the mountains.”

Clara emerged from the cabin.

“Is he coming here?”

Cole looked at Elias rather than answering.

That was answer enough.

Elias took a long breath.

“How many men?”

“Maybe four.”

“Maybe?”

“Tracks split.”

Elias looked toward the darkening timber.

“He’ll come.”

Cole nodded.

“I figured.”

The deputy explained that Marshal Garrett had sent men to protect Silver Creek while others searched the lower passes. But Elias knew the mountains better than all of them.

“So does Crowe,” Clara said.

“Yes.”

Cole looked at her.

“Miss Bennett, marshal suggests you return to town.”

“No.”

Elias turned.

“Clara.”

“I said no.”

“This isn’t the time.”

“That is exactly why I’m staying.”

Cole wisely stepped away.

Elias lowered his voice.

“Crowe wants you.”

“Crowe wants revenge.”

“Same result.”

“And if I leave, he’ll use me to draw you into town.”

Elias had no immediate answer.

Clara folded her arms.

“I’m not spending the rest of my life being moved around because dangerous men decide where I’m allowed to stand.”

Something shifted in Elias’s expression.

Not anger.

Recognition.

“You’re stubborn.”

“You taught me.”

“I absolutely did not.”

“Then perhaps it came naturally.”

Deputy Cole tried unsuccessfully to hide a smile.

Elias looked at him.

“You find this entertaining?”

“No, sir.”

“Then stop enjoying it.”

The deputy coughed.

“Yes, sir.”

They prepared the cabin.

Elias reinforced shutters.

He checked ammunition.

Clara filled water buckets in case Crowe tried fire.

Deputy Cole rode to warn two nearby homesteads.

That night Elias refused to sleep.

Clara found him sitting on the porch with a rifle across his knees.

She brought coffee.

He took it.

“Thank you.”

She sat beside him.

The valley was silver beneath moonlight.

“You’re frightened,” Clara said.

Elias looked toward her.

“Men like me don’t get frightened.”

“Men like you lie badly.”

That earned the faintest smile.

Then silence returned.

Clara studied him.

“Why did you ask for a wife?”

Elias’s smile vanished.

The question had remained between them for weeks.

He drank coffee.

“I didn’t exactly.”

“Harlan said—”

“I wrote him that winter was getting harder alone. Said if he knew some widow or woman wanting a fresh start, I’d consider marriage.”

“And Miriam answered.”

“Apparently.”

Clara tucked her knees beneath her skirt.

“Were you disappointed when you saw me?”

Elias looked genuinely startled.

“Why would you think that?”

“You said Harlan hadn’t told you I was nineteen.”

“I was angry.”

“At me?”

“At him. At Miriam. At myself.”

“Why yourself?”

“Because I should’ve asked more questions.”

Clara stared toward the meadow.

“I thought you were going to hurt me.”

“I know.”

“You did?”

“I saw how you flinched.”

Her face warmed.

“I still do sometimes.”

“I know.”

“I’m trying not to.”

“You don’t owe me that.”

She looked at him.

“You always say things like that.”

“Like what?”

“Things nobody ever said to me before.”

Elias looked away.

Clara continued.

“My father loved me. I know he did. But after he died, I began believing Miriam.”

“Believing what?”

“That maybe I really was difficult. Useless. Ungrateful.”

Elias turned toward her.

“You work from sunrise to dark.”

“That doesn’t make me valuable.”

“No.”

She blinked.

He continued.

“You’re valuable before you do anything.”

Clara’s throat tightened.

Elias stared into his coffee.

“My mother used to say that.”

“What was she like?”

“Loud.”

Clara laughed softly.

“Really?”

“She could outtalk a preacher and outshoot most men in three counties.”

“What happened?”

“Fever.”

“I’m sorry.”

“I was sixteen.”

He looked toward the mountains.

“My father followed two years later.”

“So you were alone.”

“I had Daniel.”

“Your brother.”

“Yes.”

Clara hesitated.

“And then Crowe took him.”

The muscles in Elias’s jaw tightened.

“I let Crowe take him.”

“That isn’t what you told me.”

“There’s more.”

He set the cup down.

“Daniel wanted to join the posse. I told him not to.”

“But he went.”

“I insulted him.”

Clara waited.

“I told him he was a boy trying to prove he was a man. Told him if he rode after Crowe he was a fool.”

“That sounds like you were trying to protect him.”

“He thought I didn’t respect him.”

“What happened?”

“He left angry.”

Elias stared at his hands.

“Last words Daniel heard from me were cruel.”

Clara understood now.

The isolation.

The cabin.

The sadness.

“You didn’t shoot him.”

“No.”

“You didn’t ambush the posse.”

“No.”

“You didn’t force him to ride.”

“No.”

“Then you aren’t responsible.”

Elias looked at her.

“That simple?”

“No.”

Clara’s voice softened.

“Nothing painful is simple. But something being complicated doesn’t make the wrong thing true.”

For a long time Elias said nothing.

Then he smiled faintly.

“You’re nineteen.”

“So I’ve been told.”

“You talk like sixty.”

“I had a difficult childhood.”

That made him laugh.

It was the first full laugh Clara had heard from him.

Deep and warm.

She suddenly understood something.

Elias Boon was not a frightening man pretending to be gentle.

He was a gentle man who had learned to look frightening because the world had punished everything softer.

The realization changed the way she saw him.

A branch snapped near the tree line.

Elias was standing before Clara even processed the sound.

“Inside.”

She drew her revolver.

“Together.”

He looked at her.

Then nodded.

They waited.

Nothing moved.

An hour later, Deputy Cole returned.

No sign of Crowe.

At dawn they found tracks.

One rider.

Circling the cabin.

Watching.

“He’s testing us,” Elias said.

The next two days passed without attack.

That was worse.

Every sound became suspicious.

Clara barely slept.

On the third morning, smoke rose beyond the ridge.

Elias climbed to the overlook.

When he returned, his face was grim.

“Turner homestead.”

“What happened?”

“Barn burned.”

“People?”

“Alive. Crowe left a message.”

Elias handed her a charred board.

One sentence was carved into it.

BRING THE GIRL TO DEVIL’S PASS.

Clara stared.

“He wants me.”

“He wants me to bring you.”

“Why?”

“Because Devil’s Pass is narrow.”

“An ambush.”

“Yes.”

Clara looked at Elias.

“So we don’t go.”

He said nothing.

She knew immediately.

“You’re planning to go.”

“Alone.”

“No.”

“Clara—”

“No.”

“He’ll keep burning homes.”

“And he’ll kill you if you walk into that pass.”

“Maybe.”

Her anger exploded.

“You don’t get to decide your life matters less because your brother died!”

Elias froze.

Clara regretted the words immediately.

But she did not take them back.

“You have spent twelve years punishing yourself for surviving.”

His face hardened.

“That’s enough.”

“No.”

“Clara.”

“You gave me a room.”

He stared.

“You gave me food and safety when you didn’t owe me anything. You taught me that being alive doesn’t mean being owned.”

She stepped closer.

“Now I’m telling you something.”

“What?”

“You are not owned by your guilt.”

Elias’s expression cracked.

Only slightly.

Enough.

Clara lowered her voice.

“You don’t get to throw your life away.”

He stared at her for a long moment.

Then he asked, “What do you suggest?”

“Something Silas doesn’t expect.”

That afternoon they made a plan.

Deputy Cole rode for federal reinforcements.

Elias prepared to enter Devil’s Pass from the north.

Clara would remain at the cabin.

At least that was what everyone was supposed to believe.

In truth, she took the old eastern trail that ran above the pass.

Elias hated the idea.

“It’s dangerous.”

“So is yours.”

“You’ve been riding three weeks.”

“Then I’m improving quickly.”

“If something happens—”

“Nothing will.”

“You don’t know that.”

“Neither do you.”

Finally he surrendered.

“You stay above the ridge.”

“Yes.”

“You do not come down.”

“Yes.”

“You see Crowe, you hide.”

“Yes.”

“You’re lying.”

“A little.”

Elias rubbed both hands over his face.

“I miss when you were scared of me.”

“No, you don’t.”

He sighed.

“No.”

By sunset they reached their positions.

Devil’s Pass was a narrow canyon between jagged cliffs.

Elias rode alone into the center.

Silas appeared from behind boulders with four men.

“No girl?”

Elias dismounted.

“She isn’t part of this.”

“She’s the entire reason for this.”

“No. You are.”

Silas smiled.

“Still angry about Daniel?”

Elias’s expression changed.

Clara watched from above.

Crowe dismounted.

“Your brother screamed your name when he died.”

Elias went rigid.

Clara’s stomach turned.

Silas was baiting him.

“I told him you weren’t coming.”

Elias reached toward his gun.

Four rifles lifted.

Clara almost shouted.

Then Elias stopped.

Silas laughed.

“There’s the great mountain man.”

“What do you want?”

“The ledger is gone. My organization is ruined. Grady will hang. Half my money’s been seized.”

“Sounds deserved.”

“I want what Thomas Bennett owned.”

“The claim.”

“Yes.”

“It belongs to Clara.”

“Not if she signs it over.”

“She won’t.”

Crowe smiled.

“She will when I put a bullet through you.”

Elias looked directly toward the ridge where Clara hid.

For one second their eyes met.

The signal.

Clara raised a mirror.

Sunlight flashed toward the opposite cliff.

Two shots cracked.

Not from Elias.

Deputy Cole and Marshal Garrett’s men opened fire from concealed positions.

Crowe’s riders scattered.

Elias dove behind a rock.

Clara stayed low.

The canyon filled with gunfire.

One outlaw surrendered.

Another fled.

Silas climbed toward Clara’s side of the ridge.

Her blood went cold.

He had seen the signal.

Clara ran.

Loose stones rolled beneath her boots.

She heard Crowe climbing behind her.

“Clara!”

She reached a narrow shelf above the canyon.

No exit.

She turned.

Silas emerged.

Blood streaked one side of his face.

He pointed a revolver at her.

“You’ve caused me a great deal of trouble.”

Clara drew hers.

Crowe laughed.

“You really think you can shoot me?”

Her hand trembled.

“Yes.”

“You’ve never killed anyone.”

“No.”

“I have.”

He stepped closer.

“That’s the difference between us.”

Clara remembered Elias’s lesson.

Breathe.

Don’t stare at the gun.

Know what’s behind your target.

Silas took another step.

“Put it down.”

Clara held steady.

Then Elias appeared behind him.

“Crowe.”

Silas spun.

The gun fired.

Clara screamed.

Elias staggered.

And Silas smiled.

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